Hard of Hearing and Trusting God

Elsie our loyal German Shepherd is getting up there in years. She is all of 12 years old and bless her heart she is losing her hearing. I let her out this morning and when I called her to come in there was no response so I tapped on the window. That’s the signal for her to come when it’s cold outside so I don’t have to open the door until she’s at it and again no immediate response. I thought where is she and then I realized she can’t hear me, not because she doesn’t want to but because she is unable to.

Sometimes that is our response as well when God calls. Sometimes we just can’t hear because we have not trained ourselves to hear and recognize His voice and other times we are unable to because what He is saying we are not able to receive at the time. We don’t want to harden our hearts to what He is saying but sometimes our hearts have been damaged and need to be repaired and softened to receive what He is saying. I have been there before and I could possibly be there right now although I am not sure of that yet.  I am trying to discern if it is God leading me somewhere or myself or others. My heart is to follow God and Him only so I go to His word first for council for my answers and then to those mature Christians whom I trust, who are very few in deed and there in lies my problem; the issue of trusting others. I find it very difficult to do that. Am I the only one?

I read the word and it says in Jer 17:9 The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked who can know it? If I cannot trust my own heart how in the world am I suppose to trust someone else’s? Even Jesus Himself did not trust men it says in John 2:24 because He knew all men. Finally I come to the heart of the matter when God speaks so sweetly to my heart and says “It’s not a matter of you trusting them, It’s a matter of you trusting Me with them.” There was my hard of hearing issue. I wanted to trust Him with people in my life but it was just so difficult for me. I can say that today thanks to God and His repair and softening of my heart I have the break through I have needed. My ears are no longer hard of hearing.

It always comes down to trusting Him and Him alone. I’m glad God does not give up on us but works to repair and soften our hearts to hear and receive His words. I can trust Him with them in my life and I can trust Him to give me discernment with people and you can as well. What a freedom that is for us. I give Him all the glory for that because It’s all about Him, it’s not about us. Thank you Father for the ability to trust You and You alone. Thank you for teaching me Lord. I so need it every single day. ;)

Come Out and Play

The other day Elsie was having some issues so into the truck we went and were off to the vet for a checkup. Elsie is not the best car or truck rider. She has issues (lol) but we made it to the vet, not without incident of course but we did make it. As we arrived I first I checked and made sure there were no other dogs in the waiting room. Again she has issues. I’ll explain. No dogs so we entered, got checked in and sat down to wait for our visit. As I was sitting there a woman who was obviously a German Shepherd lover admired Elsie. She is beautiful. We struck up a conversation about her and she commented on her small size. I said “Oh she was the runt of the litter and she doesn’t really like other dogs. I took her to puppy obedience class when she was little to try and socialize her but she would run and hide from the other puppies. I think her litter mates traumatized her and she wants nothing to do with other dogs.” lol

Just then we were called in to see the vet. After our visit as we were standing waiting to pay a dog and his owner tried to come out of one of the rooms after his visit. Elsie immediately displayed what I had said earlier. She took her stance and this fierce bark came out of her as if to say “If you come near me we are going to have a problem.” The owner immediately closed the door and the lady we were speaking with said “You weren’t kidding. She’s on high alert now.” I said “Yes”, paid the bill and left so that the owner stuck in the examining room could exit.

They say dogs owners are a lot like their dogs. This morning that scene played through my head and God reminded me I use to be like that. Not that I lashed out like that but that being hurt in the past I never really wanted to play with others. I was more inclined like Elsie to run and hide from the other puppies through busyness or whatever else I could think of to avoid them. It was easier to build a wall then it was to let them in. Maybe some of you can relate. How tall and thick is your wall?

I have to admit I gave up on trying to socialize Elsie. Except for Nala our German Shepherd we had when Elsie was a puppy and Henley my daughters dog who Elsie met when Henley was a puppy she pretty much doesn’t like any other dogs. I thank God He has more patience then I do and He doesn’t give up on us. He continued over the years to put wonderful Christian friends in my path even when I would hide from them He would still manage to place them there for me and slowly little by little the wall came down. I am so grateful to God that He never gave up on me. Thanks to God and some truly sincerely loving Christians He has continued to place in my path, whom I’m sure had no idea He was using in my life; I have learned to play again.

Elsie and Henley

Just last week one of those friends and I played all day visiting consignment shops and seeing what treasures we could uncover and while we were playing we ran into another one of those loving Christian friends God has placed in my path and not too many days from now I am looking forward to some playtime when I meet with a few of those loving Christian women friends over tea. Can’t wait to see you ladies. ;)

Trust God, let Him remove your wall brick by brick so that you can come out and play. We are waiting for you. ;)

Help us Father to allow You to remove those walls we have built around us to keep us safe but in reality keep us in rather than others out. Thank you Father that you teach us in such ordinary everyday things. ;)


Baby Timmy’s New Experience

We have been blessed to have our son and daughter in law and our first grandchild baby Timmy with us for awhile. We have just been having so much fun watching him grow and discover new things and yesterday was another new experience for him. He was graduating from his morning bottle to fruit and cereal, pears and rice to be exact. Mommy scooped him up as usual and headed with him into the other room to feed him which was all very normal for him but when she set him in his swing to feed him instead of nursing him he was having none of that. A serious protest cry was immediately heard throughout all the house but she undaunted by the objections continued on her mission to introduce another source of nutrition to her little son. After the first spoonful and he realized this was much more tastier than what he had been receiving all objections ceased and he was all too happy to enjoy his pears and cereal.

Of course you know me I immediately thought of us as Christians. We are so like that. We don’t like change either. Sometimes God is trying to do a new thing but we want to hold onto the old familiar thing because it’s what we know, it’s what we are comfortable with; when God is saying “Trust me, you will like the new thing better.” We can object just as much as baby Timmy but in adult ways and yet God is undaunted as well. He just continues to introduce the new thing until we realize it truly is much better for us. lol

I pray we learn to let go of the old when God is finished with it and we embrace the new thing with as much excitement as baby Timmy did once he tasted and saw that it was good. Thank you Father for teaching me in such ordinary ways. I so need it every single day. ;)

Weed Free Garden. Is it Possible?

Oh all this rain and then heat has been a bit unbearable and I am so grateful for the cooling of the days. I finally was able to get back into my garden today to do some actual work and I was amazed at the explosion of weeds. I had spent so much time and effort in the spring reengineering my garden, removing topsoil shovel by shovel that I knew was infested with weed seed that I just never could get rid of after a surgery that left me unable to tend my beloved garden. After replacing most of the top soil with good weed free soil and then mulching every inch, it looked so beautiful for the first few months. The peonies, foxgloves and roses were blooming profusely as well as a myriad of other spring summer flowers. The clematis were scrambling to the top of their new trellis home. I was ever vigilant to remove any little weed seed that happened to poke it’s little head out of the pristine mulch but alas I have to admit that in the rain, heat and the mosquitoes I just could not get back to my beloved garden. So to say after all that hard work that I was a little amaze at the condition of my garden is an understatement. The roots of the weeds were deep not to mention the spearmint and japanese anemone planted by the previous owner that reproduce through running roots. I have battled those for 12 years and yet they still pop up in the most unexpected places.

As I contemplated all of this I thought “You know the roots of sin are a lot like the weeds in my garden.” In the spring it looked like they were gone. I thought they were gone. We think we have eliminated the problem only to find it surface somewhere else. The sins of the fathers are like those running roots planted by another. I deal with some of those, maybe you do as well. Unless we completely destroy the root the fruit will remain.

I don’t want to just control the weeds and runners. I want to eliminate them completely but how do we do that? Well it is so important to remain constantly vigilant not stepping away when it’s rainy or hot (when life is storm filled and difficult ). Don’t leave the weed killer in the garden shed so to speak.  Spending time with God in His word where the weed killer is plentiful is essential. Every time that weed tries to rear it’s ugly head kill it with the word of God. Speak it, use it, wield it like the sword that it is and cut them down to the root. Jesus demonstrated this wonderfully in Mark 11:12-14 & 20-24 Now the next day, when they had come out from Bethany, He was hungry. And seeing from afar a fig tree having leaves, He went to see if perhaps He would find something on it. When He came to it, He found nothing but leaves, for it was not the season for figs. In response Jesus said to it “Let no one eat fruit from you ever again. ” And His disciples heard it. 20-24 Now in the morning, as they passed by, they saw the fig tree dried up from the roots. And Peter, remembering, said to Him, “Rabbi, look! The fig tree which You cursed has withered away.” So Jesus answered and said to them, “Have faith in God. For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, Be removed and be cast into the sea, and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says. Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them and you will have them.”

If we mix the word of God with faith in God it will kill the root of sin in our lives every single time. I admit that much like my vigilance with my garden or lack there of when it was difficult sometimes I do exactly that when life storms or becomes difficult. Maybe you do as well. I pray God will help us to do exactly what we know will kill the sin in our lives to the root.

Thank you Father for teaching me in such ordinary every day things. I so need it every day. Thank you that you allow me to share that with others. ;)



God Never Runs Out of Blessings

The other day our new little 5 week old grandson sneezed one time and mommy said “Bless you” and then he sneezed again and mommy said “Bless you.” After about the 5th or so sneeze mommy said “There is only so many times I can bless you.” I said “Aren’t you glad God never says that to us?” We both laughed but I am so thankful God never says that to us. “Sorry my children but I’m all out of blessings.” Maybe you have felt that way sometime in your life when the road gets long and hard or maybe you just don’t think you deserve the blessings of God.

I remember a time like that in my life. My husband had just retired from the Navy and we were in the process of purchasing our first house. We had never felt comfortable purchasing while we were in the Navy because I never wanted to be in one place trying to sell a house while he was in another but finally the long awaited dream was becoming a reality and I just had such a hard time with it. I don’t know why. I guess I had some issues back then. lol I truly didn’t believe I deserved it. Ever been there? Well one morning as I was talking with God about this house purchase for the umpteenth time He spoke so sweetly to my heart and said “Let Me bless you. Stop thinking you don’t deserve it. Of course you don’t but I want to do it.” It only takes a second for God to put everything in perspective. I had forgotten that it’s all about Him and what He wants to do not whether we deserve it or not because to be honest none of us deserve the blessings of God. That’s why they are called blessings. It’s about Him longing to bless us, we just have to learn to receive them.

In Isa 30:18 it says, Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; therefore He will rise up to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him. Numbers 6:22-27 And the LORD spoke to Moses, saying “Speak to Aaron and his sons, saying, “This is the way you shall bless the children of Israel. Say to them: “The LORD bless you and keep you; The LORD make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you; The LORD lift up His countenance upon you; and give you peace. “So they shall put My name on the children of Israel, and I will bless them.”

There is no doubt that God longs to bless His children. A quick search of the word reveals 389 uses of the word bless in both the old and new testament. The only question is “Is His name on us? Do we know Jesus not just know about Jesus?” Let me assure you that God longs to bless His children. We just need to learn how to let Him because it’s all about Him. It’s not about us.

Thank you Father for teaching us through the ordinary things of life. You are a good God. ;)

The Lost Heart

At Christmas time last year my husband gave me a beautiful heart shaped diamond ring and said when he gave it to me “You will always have my heart.” Oh my goodness how sweet is he? Well just a few days ago when I looked down at my heart ring from my husband and realized the heart was missing from the setting.

Oh No!!! I immediately started to back track. Where had I been? What had I done? I had spent some time working in the garden. I had gone to the garden store and bought some plants, came home and potted them up so that heart could be anywhere. I looked through the house but then I had to attend a Faith Lift meeting so I was off.. On my way there in tears I called my husband and told him I had lost his heart. I was so devastated, and he said to me “It’s ok honey, it’s not my real heart. You will never lose that.” AWWW!!!

I am so thankful for that and how precious it is that he gave me his heart over 33 years ago and I thought you know God also has given us His heart it says in Eze 36:26a and 27. ”I will give you a new heart and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart. And I will put My Spirit in you so that you will follow my decrees and be careful to obey my regulations.” If the new spirit was His then it stands to reason that the new heart was as well.

Jesus in John 13:34 says “A new commandment I give you that you love one another as I have loved you.” That would be an impossible task if He had not given us His heart and His Spirit to accomplish it.

Even though I lost that diamond heart, a heart of stone. (I imagine that’s another lesson in itself) lol It is a blessing to know we will never lose His heart or His Spirit for He has given it to His children as an everlasting covenant through Jesus Christ His Son and He has promised we will never lose them in Heb 13:5b “Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you.”

Thank you Father for the amazing gift of Your heart and Your Spirit through the amazing gift of Your Son. I praise You Lord for those awesome gifts from Your loving heart. ;)

Husband Hunting

This morning as I awoke a little after 6 am I was excited as I saw from the upstairs hallway that the light was on downstairs. That could only mean one thing. My husband was still at home. Unusual because he is normally gone by then but the smell of toasted bread was in the air. A sure sign we was still home. As I descended the stairs I saw through the window that his car was still in the drive and when I made it to the bottom of the stairs the aroma of him, his cologne was lingering. Surely he is here. After 33 years of marriage I was still so excited to see him and be with him before he left and wondered what kept him here so late.

Elsie was dancing to go out so I did that and then hurried to the lighted living room where I was sure I would find him but the room was empty. No husband. Oh well he must be in his office, so I set off for that room. Again no husband. Ever the optimist, well maybe he’s in the downstairs bath. Nope. Slowly the realization comes to me that he is not here, but his car is here. I check the front driveway and see that our truck is gone. A total let down. I was so bummed. I missed him by minutes. I gave him a call and we talked, definately not the same as spending time with him.

I then moved on and settled down with my coffee and my bible and at that moment I thought, I can’t imagine what it would be like to look for God with such expectancy as I did this morning for my husband and never find Him. I am so grateful that when I open the pages of my bible, or as I look for Him in my life as I live it; in all the circumstances, afflictions and trials as well as all the love, joy and happiness within it I never find Him missing.

He is so faithful to His children. For He Himself has said “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” Heb 13:5b and in Matt 28:20b he reminds us “Low I am with you always even to the end of the age.” In Jer 29:13 He says “you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.” It is so comforting to know that He promises when we search for Him with all our hearts that we will never find Him missing as I did my husband this morning.

If you are not one of His children I pray you will consider becoming one. You will never find a love more wonderful than His.

Thank you Father for teaching me in the everyday ordinary things of my life. You are so faithful to Your children. ;)

Why Marriage is Sacred between a Man and a Woman

This is a different perspective on this issue. Let me state first before I begin that I believe all people are entitled to equal rights under the law but I believe the sanctity of marriage should remain between a man and a woman and this is why I believe that.

Marriage was in the heart of God. It was instituted and created by Him. It was not man’s idea and we see this is Gen 2:22-24 Then the rib which the Lord God had taken from man He made it into a woman, and He brought her to the man. And Adam said: “This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; She shall be called Woman Because she was taken out of man.” Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife and they shall become one flesh.

Marriage is not just physical. There is a spiritual element to marriage that can only be experienced between a man and a woman. God made it that way for a purpose. May I say that the purpose is this.

So that we could experience a relationship here on earth that is like no other in that it is the closest relationship we have here on earth that represents our relationship with Christ. We as His body have this close an intimate relationship with Him. We become one with Him. Jesus speaking in John 17:21 says that they may be one, as You Father are in Me, and I in You; that they also may be one in Us, that the world may believe that You sent Me. In Eph 5:30-32 Paul states, For we are members of His body, of His flesh and of His bones. For this reason a man shall leave His father and mother and be joined to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh. This is a great mystery but I speak concerning Christ and the church. Paul is speaking here of oneness in Christ. This is why marriage is sacred. It was instituted by God to represent His close personal relationship with us, His body. This is why it should remain sacred between a man and a woman fore only they can be joined to make one flesh, as we are joined to Christ and become one with Him.

I believe those who wish to live together should have all the legal rights within the union but to call it marriage should not be fore it is sacred in the eyes of God for this purpose.

Don’t Let Your Mind Kidnap You

Recently I have been thinking about and planning for Easter dinner. I had settled on a Victorian themed Easter so after some research on the computer for my table scape and how I wanted our Easter celebration to look this year I headed out on a shopping trip looking for those special items that would work so perfectly with my Victorian Easter theme. I spent some time in my favorite TJ Maxx store and as I headed out with my treasures I saw my car from a distance and headed toward it. As I got closer I noticed an unusually long scratch dent along the passenger side of my fairly new car. Of course I was just so upset as I thought someone had hit my car as I was so obliviously shopping unaware of the assault my car was enduring and of course the more I thought about this the more angry I became. My thoughts went something like this “Who would do such a thing?” “How could anyone be so careless and thoughtless as to hit my car and just take off like that?” As my anger grew into fuming at this so totally insensitive, uncaring, unfeeling person who could do such a thing; I looked up away from examining the dent and lengthy scratch to the inside of my car and nothing within it was recognizable to me. Slowly the realization came to me that this was not my car. It was the same exact color and model but clearly the things inside did not belong to me. I felt like Emily Litella “Never mind.” lol

Of course with that God reminds me that sometimes we can be so close to a situation that we cannot see it objectively. We need to step back and get the whole picture. It is oh so important to have all the information before rendering a verdict. How often we can jump to the wrong conclusions without all the information.

James 1:5 If anyone lacks wisdom let him ask of God who gives to all liberally without reproach, and it will be given to him. Wisdom would certainly give us the information we need before we allow our minds to run away with us. I must admit if I’m not spending the time I need with the Lord my mind is off and running taking me right along with it before I even know what has happened. Maybe that happens to you as well. Thank goodness we have a loving and forgiving Father who allows us to get back on track with Him when we have been kidnapped by our minds. lol

Thank you Father for teaching me. I so need it everyday.

Hot or Cold

Just a disclaimer before you read on, this is definitely a posting for women. You have been warned. Lol

Oh my goodness I have to admit I am at that time in my life. Maybe you have experienced it in your own life or maybe you are not there yet but I’m speaking of that time when I’m hot, no I’m cold, no I’m definitely hot back and forth back and forth. Yes it’s the dreaded word, do I dare say it menopause. Actually I believe I’m premenopausal because I refuse to believe I’m that old. Lol  Last night was a constant covers no covers night. I’m hot, I’m cold all night long and of course even in the middle of that I found the spiritual in it as I covered and uncovered for the umpteenth time I thought sometimes our walk with God is like this. I’m hot, I’m cold. Some days I feel so close to God and our fellowship is so sweet and connected and other days life gets in the way and I feel so far away from Him I couldn’t hear Him speak if He were to call out loud to me in a quiet room and yet I know it is not God who moved. Life is like that sometimes. We become so busy with the day to day things that we forget to spend the quiet time we so desperately need to hear the still small voice of the Lord. The other evening I found myself in that situation. A sweet woman was asking us to write whatever we felt the Lord was showing us to lie down. I tried so hard to hear Him but I could not. I so needed to be alone with Him to hear His voice.

1 Kings 19:11b – 12 The Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind tore into the mountains and broke the rocks in pieces before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind and after the wind an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake; and after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire; and after the fire a still small voice. Life can sometimes become like the wind, the earthquake and the fire and that is when I need to remember that I need that undivided quiet time with Him if I am going to hear that still small voice.  How about you?

Thank you Lord for teaching me. I so need it every single day. ;)